Hello hello everybody and massive apologies for being the worst blogger of all time and MAJORLY slacking on my blogging game, funnily enough my last post was about how to get out of a blogger funk, and here I am knee deep in one 😦 Maybe I should take my own advice LOL! So today I thought I would do a bit of a much needed life update, just to catch you all up on my life and almost start again, find my niche and what I’m really passionate about sharing on here.
I’m not going to lie to you, I thought that summer would be my time to really go for it blogging and vlogging wise, and here’s me posting one holiday vlog and -1 blogposts!! But I was wrapped up in having a boyfriend for the first time and working and completely neglected not only myself but my passions as well. But now that I’m a single pringle and have dropped my hours at work I have more time to work on ME and what I WANT from life. So here I am, about to give the biggest brain dump and share all my thoughts and opinions that I have gathered over these months that I have been away from here.
future anxieties & negative influences
I feel like I always have people in my ear telling me what am I doing NEXT and what my plans are and if I’m going to Uni and saying i’m running out of time. And all i’m saying now is that it stops now and I need to be present. Because a lot of my life I have always been thinking about next year and the next thing and what might happen or what could happen or what will happen, and much of these thoughts are the creation of anxiety. So I’m vowing to live in the moment, and cut the cord on negative influences in my life. Because life is too short to have negative people in your life just for the sake of them being there. Friends have always and will always be about quality over quantity.
Speaking of friends, I feel like over this past year off I have taken I have matured MASSIVELY. Not only am I more confident and outgoing a person, I am much more mature (if I do say so myself) I can see through bitchiness and people who aren’t worth my time. Before if someone riled me I would KICK OFF but now, I evaluate if its worth my time or not and how much I value the friendship. Also since leaving school I have stopped watering those dead plants! To quote my fave quote; “stop messaging first and you’ll realise all the dead plants you’ve been watering”. Now I adore this quote. Because by doing this you will see who genuinely cares about you and your wellbeing and your life and those who wouldn’t even notice if you dropped dead tomorrow. And yes it definitely does take two to tango, but if you are sensing a toxic or negative energy in your life, trust me CUT IT OFF. It will do you the world of good.
Now I know I didn’t really chat too much about my boyfriend on my socials nor did I reveal much about his appearance or identity, but that relationship has now ended. Despite it only being a 6 month relationship, I still care very much for him and I am happy that we are on such good terms and I wish nothing but the best for him 🙂 Now I’m not going to go into the nitty gritty of it as it just is quite a personal thing, but I’m good so don’t worry about me gals!!!!! One thing I have learnt from this experience is what I want in a potential partner and what I don’t want and I feel like you only learn those things from relationships. It was the best 6 months and I thank him for it 🙂
love yo self
Self care self care self care. Something I chat so much about and promote a tonne, yet barely do it! So this month, I made the decision to join a gym, not just any gym a David Lloyd (aka expensive AS FUCK) and yes I could have just joined a cheap gym, but I wanted an escape, somewhere I could go for a swim, relax, exercise, take classes etc, and David Lloyd fit the bill! So far I have been LOVING it! I go to Yoga and Meditation classes regularly and go to the gym and swim 3 times a week, I find it time that I take out for myself, to reset and prepare for the day. I am really enjoying getting back into fitness and hopefully will bring that side of my life to my socials!
For once I am finding myself quite looking forward to Autumn. Which honestly is bizarre for me as you guys all know how much I love the sun and gorgeous days and despise the rain (usually) but I am actually rather excited for this autumn and winter! The cosy rainy days, the candles, the cosy clothes, the boots and scarves and Pumpkin Spice Lattes. Month by month I am finding the positives in all aspects of life, yes even the freezing cold english winter! (maybe come back to me in a few months and see how I feel about it then LOL).
I know I usually share my goals for the coming few months with you all, but I honestly don’t have any, as I said earlier I am just trying to live in the moment, obviously it’s good to have goals and aims to work towards, but the only things I want to achieve before the end of this year is to get back into blogging, find myself something to do career wise for next year and maintain my current fitness regime!
Well that is all for my first blogpost back! I hope you all enjoyed it and hopefully you feel a bit more caught up with my life and hopefully you gained something from this post, otherwise just enjoyed reading my brain dump LOL. This is the first of many blogposts to come, so let me know what you want to see! Drop me a comment below and let me know what you have been up to: I would LOVE to know! Be sure to give this blog a follow and also subscribe to my YouTube channel ‘LIVVGRACEE’ for more me 🙂 Have a lovely rest of your evening loves!!